I have a fear of falling. and i think it says a lot about me and who I really am.
Finally after a whole semester shying away from the field, I did my napfa test and the only thing I couldnt pass was the standing broad jump.
I just cant tuck my legs in. Everytime i’m in the air, i plant my feet back onto stable ground. I dont know why I just do.
Even after darren stayed an hour after the test with me to retake the station. I still couldn’t do it.
After some considerable consideration, I think i have a deep seeded fear of falling. I believe its deeper than a physical fear of missing a step and falling face first on the cold hard floor. It has to do with trust.
Its the trust in yourself that carries you through the air, keeping your legs in to go further. INSTEAD of slamming your legs down to stop yourself midway.
Its this lack of trust that has turned me into the bitter boy you see in front of you. I want to be so much more than I am now. I wanted to be happy.
